for you..

Distance is a patron in my life. It makes me feel save, and protected. And that's how do I live my life. And I hardly trust people. Seems like no body loves me. Someone said, don't ever fall to the same hole. Because everytime I love them, they would leave me soon after it.

But I don't wanna live for that nonsense anymore. Maybe it's just how this live goes on. People came and leaves. Making stories in every paper of your memories. Friends, or just acquaitance is okay. However, they will be someone on you. Maybe more than just someone..

I want to just replace things in my mind. Things that hardly to let it out. Past will be the best scars ever, doesn't it? I want to believe that next time Dads home, he'll not just hug me and leaving for another meeting. Nor Moms for their business. Then me and my brothers will be together, no one left. No one feel alone no more. Three of us, together..

And my friends aren't fake as usual, they will be as great as my BFF. No more stabbing behind. And my home will be full as i dream on it..

But sometime you have to wake up. Thin line of believing and dreaming is hard to find. all the words I've said just dream. That I try to believe. I have to understand, like someone told me. It's not just to be me. There's a world to stand for.

How about the one that we love? It's not just me. It's for them. They have their own life. I want this, but sure they want else. That have their decision. He has his option. Maybe there's a lot of things in charge, lots of condition. But that's live, doesn't it?

He's responsibilities, and that's what I'm praying for.

We love somebody, and we have to fight for it.  So we have to push the right button for the future. We have to fight for our future.

And I know, that I'm belong for one person. No matter what, I believe that he'll come, back for me. Right place, right time, right person that I love. So, you there this is for you. Believe that's all for your self. Calm your heart because we love you. We pray for you. Just doing well, and remember everything will be okay..

I keep my self for one man. And he's you..